Let Go and Be New

Standing in silence, I closed my eyes. I felt the wind in my hair and I began to feel water falling upon me like rain. It rained for so long that it became a flood and the water was immersing me until I could not breathe any more. I heard the words “Let go.” So, I looked down and I saw that I was holding onto many weights and they all had names on them; “Flesh, Past, Self-esteem, Acceptance, Rules….”

I began to look around trying to find something to cut them away and I heard again “Let go.” My arms were then so heavy and my hands hurt from cramping and I knew that I had to let go If I wanted to breathe again. I looked down to my hands and looked at the weights… I knew that I wanted to let go, but I just didn’t know how. I kept thinking, “If I let go, will they come back? What will I do when they are gone? Is it really going to be better?” At that very moment I heard again, “Let go. This is not your portion; to die with your flesh and your past weighing you down.” I looked up and saw the light of the sun and then looked back down again. I turned around and I saw a man standing with His hands open and His arms stretched out. He smiled and told me to give the weights to Him.

I put my head down in shame because I knew that I had held them for too long. Then, knowing my thoughts, the man lifted my chin so our eyes could meet. He just smiled and with so much love He gently covered my heavy, swollen hands. He then looked into my eyes and said with such grace, “Let Me have them.”

One by one I let go and one by one He took each of them as though they did not weigh anything. He then threw them far away, and as I was watching, I saw white words in the water. It said “As far as the east is to the west.” He then turned, smiled and scooped me up in His arms and we began to rise above the water. He placed me on solid ground and I immediately fell to my knees bowing and giving Him praise. He then leaned down and said to me, “I now call you pure.”  And with gentle hands, He raised me to my feet. I realized that I was no longer wet but in new clothing, just as someone in royalty would wear. I spun around and gave Him a hug. He smiled and spoke as though He was speaking to my spirit. He said “If anyone be in Me he is new; all things are passed away; behold all things are made new!”